Here is what I have learned just today - I don't need to feel bad about not getting up in the morning. I really do want to do it - but not bad enough to go to bed so for now here is how it will work. I run and then I come in and instead of winding down in bed going through the KSL or endless apps of stuff I will not buy I can come and do my daily reflection. Get it all out and do it on my time - when I feel good and energized. Still going to try and get up to meditate and scripture study, but I feel best exercising at night when at all possible and I'm not going to feel bad about that any more.
Something else - I have put away (hid) my scale. It is literally driving me crazy and I know it is under the shower curtain in my closet, but I have not brought it out for 4 days. Even over the weekend - I did it. I am more than a number! I am giving away all this guilt, and not enough-ness and I don't need to find it ever again.
I'm starting this year off RISING to the top of my game and letting go an giving away all that I am not because I simply don't want to be it. Amanda Dixon said "you don't have a habit you don't want." So I have given up on a soda a day I am not going to get up to work out at 5am. I don't need to be everywhere exactly on time. My best is good enough. Now to find the balance to continue becoming.
Rachel Hollis has the 10/10/1 plan for the start today journal. I challenged my masterminders to do it. I am trying it myself. Here goes.
- I am featured in the SUU Alumni Magazine as an Alumni Spotlight
- I am a highly sought after and compensated motivational business and personal speaker
- I am a go to example of realistic and down to earth parenting. Spending quality time with each child each day - making them feel fully loved every day.
- I am genuinely interested and continually passionate in my relationship with DJ
- I spend 2 hours on myself everyday building my mind, body, and spirit. I have built muscle, a reading mind, and an enlightened spirit.
- I own a set of highly profitable and full storage units that cover our monthly house and unit mortgage
- I have a family boat, motorcycle, and moped
- I have a beautiful house that I love to be in and it is complete, together, and enough. It takes not more of my time an energy
- I an active, elected member of the local school board
- I have a used passport that I use to travel to dream destinations from my books at a minimum of 1x a year
I feel this is so important at the stage my kids are at. They need to be filled up with my love every day. They need it and they need my presence when I'm around. I'm doing ok, but I need to do better. Problems can be solved another day but if I don't fully fill/fund them they are going out in the world with a deficit. Take of my teacher hat an just love the dickens out of them. I am a realist and in this it is not a bad thing.
