Sweet Spot

Found my sweet spot tonight running. Finally after 6 weeks of running 2-3 x a week I found it. Been years since I've been there. I found it 5.3 miles per hour 11:11 minute mile. I've added a 20 lb weight vest for the first 20 minutes then I take it off walk for a minute and then head back for a 10 minute straight run. It was great to be there. It was great to feel good again.

I also joined Weight Watchers again and while I've only lost 3 lbs I am being more conscious and responsible for my choices. The 20 lbs remind me of what I was like when I was pregnant. I lost that much and now I'm looking to loose another 15-20. I did it once and can do it again. I imagine not carrying around that much extra and I think of my body not holding that much and I am so grateful that has carried me this far.

It also makes me wonder how much mental weight I am carrying around. I need to unload it more often. I need to feel confident in myself that I don't need to carry around other people's opinion anymore. I need to let go of the worry and hold on more to the love and joy.

Now to work on finding my mental and spiritual sweet spot as hard as I've worked on finding my physical sweet spot.

Bad Taste

Wanna know why I hope my girls are NOT cheerleaders - Working with cheer at The Peak has left such a bad taste in my mouth that I want to steer clear of it at all costs. Seriously, it is hard to keep neutral feelings for it when all they do is complain - Bitch and Moan with no thought or regard to the why and balance of everything else. They are more important than anything or anyone else.

Our cheer director might really be the end of me here at The Peak. I never want to quite, yell, and swear so much as when I'm dealing with her and her damn tears. Grow up and think outside of yourself for once!

I spend way to much time and energy on them and all their many situations. So what to do? Honestly no idea. I can explain my side all damn day and it will still not make any differences. She will whine until she gets her way, but I am going to do my best to ensure that things are fair on all sides.

This will not matter in 5 years unless she is still here. So that whole 5/5/5/5 things doesn't really work. Damn IT.

So at this point going to remove myself from it and let Mardi address it - as long as she holds firm to the vision I am creating. So now to email her that task.