This has become a permanent question in my mind these days. Today especially.
DarLa gave her 2 weeks notice.
Is it surprising? No - I could tell in May she didn't want to come back. I knew she prefered collecting her unemployment. She has been unhappy for years. I have never seemed to make her happy or able to give her what she was seeking so why am I feeling so heavy with this new knowledge?
I think that I feel responsible.
I feel that it is because of me she is leaving
I worry that I am harming the business with her exit.
I worry that we will not find a qualified replacement
I am exhausted to think that I will have more responsibility to take on.
I'm sad that everything I tried didn't work to make her happy.
I'm frustrated that she only is giving us 2 weeks when we employed her for 7 years
I'm disappointed that she was just getting decent with marketing and now its all back on me
I wonder what people will think when she leaves
It also makes me wonder
Why am I still here?
Am I treated better than the other employees
What do we do differently to keep people around
Am I settling for something less than I should
Why am I satisfied with such hard work and situations and others are not?
Am I putting my needs below my kids?
But this could also mean I could find someone
Someone great wants to help build something together
Less fighting and stress at work with relationships
Someone who will take direction better
Someone with better follow through and scheduling skills
Someone who is less demanding
Someone who makes me feel like I'm doing a good job
Someone who likes what the Peak is and what we have to offer instead of constantly finding fault
Someone who is nice to everyone and not competitive
Someone who doesn't always need to take or receive credit
Someone who wants to do more than asked
Someone who likes to work with people and not have to be over people
Someone who will research marketing and ad tactics and help keep the Peak enrolling
Someone who wants more than just a check
Someone able to work more hours when needed
Creative and happy - not sarcastic and mean
Someone who likes me and will assist me.
This person is there. I'm hoping I can get them the first time, but I can find them if I'm patient. They also want to be part of something awesome and exciting. Even if it is hard.
LABOR can bring about great things as well hard things.
