This is a constant struggle for me. I try hard to get along with people but gosh it’s hard.
Last night was a hard night. Running Christmas show routines and Cheer coach did it again. She inserted her class where they shouldn’t have been and when asked to vacate after being there she did not go and I was short with her.
I fixed the problem hopefully for next week and apologized but she never takes responsibility or even says thanks for anything. I just seriously don’t like her and when she does this it makes it even harder.
I don’t like selfishness and when people are unkind I tend to be unkind back especially when I’m stressed and pulled and overwhelmed. No grace or respect is ever shown and had never been offered in the years so it’s hard to feel or reciprocate.
On top of a very hard time at work my mom is in the burn unit. I had to help her on Monday to get there. Can’t go see her because of covid. I also got a text saying the narration guy would not be able to do our narration so I have that on my plate as well.
My situation is that I feel bad when other people choose to feel bad over something I have said or did. I know that I cannot take responsibility for their feelings but I do try hard to build people up and am disappointed when I fail to do that but I also cannot be 💯 percent all the time and I need to give myself the grace I try and offer others.
I need to do my affirmations to remind myself of my worthiness, value, and worth. No matter if I make mistakes or not these things do not change. If others don’t see then they still don’t change.
