I went to a Riki Session today to try and clear out much of my weight and pressures. It was really interesting and good. One thing she was was to be Selfishly Selfish. Sounds great and good, but not even sure how to do that right now so tonight I started with a bath. I actually shaved my legs.
Got out and first thing can't find my little face razors. I know some little hands have taken them but no takers.
Next asked poppy to try on some clothes and had to ask 3 x before she would try on the new clothes I purchased for her.
Went down for family prayer and the house is a disaster.
Hazel explains that she has a poster due tomorrow as well as need to study for her end of trimester math test. She just finished up 4 hours of dance and this is the first I hear about it.
I ask the kids who pulled all the Christmas books out and all of them denied it.
Asked why Hazel was just sitting doing nothing if she had so much to do. Attitude. Asked her what she did all yesterday when she was hope. Got a play by play of nothing happening, but her making out that she was busy.
Ask for prayer because now I'm getting grumpy. Gable is asked to pray. First thing he says.
"Please bless that mom will stop freaking out..." That is it. I threw what was in my hand and went up stairs. Bull Shit family. I call bull shit on all the rebelliousness of your excuses and actions.
I am done asking and begging. I give it all back to you all to deal with. I am over doing things to make your lives easier when you never try to do the same for me.
My first act of selfishness is to stop taking care of you all and forgetting about myself.
Tomorrow I will make a list of things I love to do.
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