Today was so interesting. Sometimes you are faced with the same situations you have preached about but this time you need to take your own advice. It is surreal to be in a moment when you are genuinely trying to help and in that moment you realize you also need that same advice and need to implement it in your own situations.
Today Kelly was struggling and I needed her to feel that word ENOUGH. The word I wear everyday. The Word I gave to Kylie in September. As it has been such a crazy few months that word is what I needed today. I did enough. It is never complete but hot dogs and chili is enough. 3 pair of clean and dry underwear for Jude is enough. Working out for 25 mins this morning is enough. I can't and don't need to do it all - doing enough is just that.
I now look at thing and try and feel when it's enough - not perfect - but enough. I hold onto that word, especially with the kids. Did I love them enough. Did I do enough with them? Do they know they are enough? Everyday I do my best and that is enough.
How great is it when you already have the answers you need - IF you will just listen to yourself. I am discovering more and more that I need to do this. I need to have confidence that I do have the answers and that my enough is enough no matter what others think or feel. I am only responsible to myself.
I also think that by allowing myself this grace it will allow me to expect less from others and extend this grace to them as well. They are doing their enough and I have to abide by that. I cannot make them do more. I can try and inspire excellence, but they can only rise to their own expectations of themself and that has nothing to do with me so it is not a failure for either party.
How great it that to realize. When we help ourselves we in turn are really helping others and that cycle can go on and on. This is why we need to heal, and feed our own souls so we can in turn be whole enough to heal others. xx
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