Learning to Rest

Today is the day after the final performance at The Peak. We close the Peak today so we all can rest. It's a risk. We have customers. They have needs, but as employees we do to and that need now is to rest. We also let the coaches off next week so they can rest and rejuvenate for the next 12 weeks of summer. It's intense. We have 600 kids in our care  and it's an awesome responsibility. It's a joy and a struggle.

I am trying to learn to rest. Not just do nothing, but to actually rest. Part of what makes my mind rest is writing it all out. I am dreaming lately which means that I have too much in my head that I need to sort through. When I don't write enough out I dream more, and very unsettled. The words on the screen give my mind the peace it needs to rest.

I used to rest by getting everything off my to do list. That does bring me great joy and my list now is longer than usual - still no shower in my bathroom 5 month's later, but resting also means fun and doing things that bring me joy. Right now people, and memories give me joy. The list still needs to be done and I need to work on it but it also can wait for a little while.

My Joy List
-By bedroom. I have never been one to hang out in my room but I love it. I retreat to it, even it's messy state.
-Zeal - Call it my morning ritual but it is something just for me that I don't share.
-My kiddos. I really do love being with them - but it requires me to also have time away from them.
-Sun -it's severely lacking right now, but I am anxious for it's return.
-Summer is almost here.
-Love hearing the kids downstairs playing together -especially when DJ is with them
-DJ we had a 24 hr getaway and it was splendid. 3 meals all by ourselves.
-Real people who don't try to fein perfection.
-Jude is doing so good potty training. Easiest kid so far which is nice since so much else has been hard.
-Poppy is getting ready for her own room. She is excited
-Games -Easter bunny brought us hot potato, perfection, and guess who. We have had a lot of fun with them so far.
-Snuggles - Jude is in bed with me snuggling as much as he does.

Much to feel joy about these days.
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