I woke up with a headache. I went to be frustrated. The last 48 have not been peaceful. I had a parent meeting last night and I went into it thinking that I was going to be done with them all by the end, but instead I have more work to do for them and more proving/trust earning in the coming months.
This made me angry. This made me frustrated. This was not the ending I had hoped to come to. I was looking to get more "hard things" off my plate. I was looking to get people who didn't value me - away from me. Instead it is now a full serving of change that I will need to do.
I'm not usually one to walk away from a battle. I like I good challenge, but I am defeated right now and don't want to try. I'm tired an not sure I can win anymore.
I was thinking about this all last night as I was trying to settle into bed and the thought was .... "win them over. Make them love you. Prove to them that you are up to the task and a person of your word."
I went to sleep - exhausted at the thought, but I did sleep - semi peacefully (minus the 12 year old who came in saying she couldn't sleep in the basement - was my couch available?)
I still have a headache. The kind that is in the back of your skull. The dull aching kind. It is however literally behiend me. It's not the first thing on my mind. Peace and a Plan has replaced it.
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