Don't Care

Read a great quote today. "Don't care about people who are not caring about you." This is perfect for today. I have been stewing over the girls piano lesson yesterday. I am not loving their teacher right now. Have not been sure about her for the last few months. Her ability for fun is limited by their ability to impress her.

Yesterday was one of those days. Poppy had her important eye appointment. Dr took an hour just to get to us and there were lots of tests for her larger pupil. We have had this appointment since mid August.  She barely told us last week what time group lesson would be. For 3 weeks out of the month we are there without fail. Maybe a little late, but there. The 4th week that she decides to change the day and time it just doesn't work really well. We already have that slot of time assigned out to other things.

Yesterday poppy was 30 minutes late and as she entered - she was shooshed. Hazel was 45 minutes late. Janna told her how late she was in front of everyone. I would not have even brought them except that they had to be there in order to do the recital next month.

I am just annoyed that her change is not only making my life hard, but that she is annoyed that I can't adjust to her whim. If I had not already paid the $60 materials fee I would already be looking elsewhere.

I am doing my best and when other people cannot respect, appreciate, and understand that then they are not my kind of people. I work full time. Have 4 kids - all with their own appts to get to every day. I will not allow people to make me feel bad - especially when I am paying them. Where is their customer service?

This all leads me to the quote above. I cannot care what Janna thinks of me. Her opinion doesn't/should't matter to me because she is not spending anytime making sure that we are taking care of. She isn't giving us any consideration or extra thoughts so she shouldn't get any from me. Other's people opinion of my is none of my business as per Rachel Hollis, but DAMN it's hard - especially when I have to deal with them consistently 1x per week.

This means that I remind myself of how her opinion of me doesn't matter. Hopefully she will treat the girls better than she treats me. Poppy was embarrassed and got her feelings hurt but we all need to realize that this is Janna and has no reflection of us. We cannot care because she doesn't.