I taking some heavy measures with Poppy and focusing hard and long, throwing anything I can at her for her improvement and happiness and I think it has made me feel that I need to do myself what I am expecting her to do for herself. So here I go . Everyday I do 1 thing that focuses on my spirit, my body, and my mind. I wrote it on my mirror and am happy to announce that today I got all 3 in.
For my mind Im using the journal prompts I bought 1.5 years ago and today's question is what is my mission in life, and could I have started with a harder question?
This really is what is bothering me. What am I doing with my life? Am I living up to my potential and expectations of where I want to be? My answer to the first is - Winging it every day. The answer to the 2nd is Nada. Which breads the question of why? Why do I feel so out of control. Is it 4 kids - obviously yes, but that really is putting the blame on them and that's not fair. Is it because I work full time - yes, but still not good enough.
Maybe the feeling is the problem and not the situation. Maybe the expectation is damaging instead of inspiring. So to answer what is my mission in life - Today with 2 more months before I turn 39...
My mission is to change the world to a more joyous place through little things.
My mission is to make everyone feel better leaving me than when the came.
My mission is to LOVE my kids into wholeness no matter my personal daemons.
My mission is to share God's love whenever possible.
My mission is to LOVE myself so I can accept the love of others.
My mission is to do my best everyday and then try harder tomorrow.
My mission is to leave judgement out of any equation and to find the good that always is there.
My mission is to feel - not numb and to follow the feelings confidently.
My mission is to be happy being me, having my life, and content in my situation.
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