New.. Sacrifices.

I'm beginning again, which seems like the only constant in my life, but I'm giving myself the time I need - the only way I know how, in the early morning. One change is to start with gratitude to work on feeling more abundance from the start of the day instead of just at the end.

I am grateful for writing.
For the last 3 months I knew that I needed to write my feelings more. I am finally acting on this knowledge and inspiration. I know that words are my power and as I use them and take them out of my mind that they will provide the continued inspiration and healing and clarity I am seeking

I am grateful for imperfection.
I have always said this. I used to wear a circle necklace to remind myself that - that was the only perfect thing anywhere. I kept swearing when I was the RS president to remind myself that I was still me - imperfect no matter the calling. As I got married and had kids, the need for perfect has seemed more intense and needful. As I sit here looking at all the unfinished house projects. The stuff out of place. The messes all around, they simply don't bother me as the once did. There are other needs that need attending to and I am ok to let the other things wait.

I am grateful for my body.
Now this one is not even close to where I want it to be, BUT as I was meditating we were suppose to look at ourselves and look at the parts that make us uncomfortable and look at the whole and to find some compassion and I couldn't help but think of my belly. Man is it driving me crazy in my mind lately. I can't seem to wear what I want. The garments keep sliding under causing a bigger pooch, but I am so grateful that there once used to be a child inside there. I'm grateful I could carry 4 of my own. I'm grateful that with all the little problems that my body has that it was healthy enough to create life and sustain it. Now I'm in a different time and I need to to sustain me for the next X years, but that belly reminds me of 4 of my greatest blessings and I am grateful for them.

So as I make this sacrifice of sleep and avoidance for myself and Heavenly Father. I am grateful for the inspiration to do so and the faith that it will allow me to create space for Him to speak more clearly to me and allow myself to know myself again.