Poor in Spirit

Still going through Nephi's Isaiah at this point. Not the funnest thing to read about the end of the world, but today Poor in Spirit caught my attention. It seems like a bad thing right? This confuses me sometimes. The Be Attitudes make it a good thing, but Isaiah doesn't make it sound super great.

I searched it and yes it is GOOD. It's meekness. It's teachability. It's lacking - BUT what I discovered is that it is no good UNLESS you come to Christ with that vulnerability. Being poor never feels great right? Having LESS never has made me feel super great, BUT what I discovered today is that if we don't come up short what is the point of having a Savior?

The whole plan is for us to NEED his grace. If we have everything in abundance all the time why would we turn to him? How would we ever change and BECOME better. It's no accident that this is in the BE attitudes sermon. To Be-Come anything we need to feel lacking or change cannot take place.

So next time I'm feeling "poor" maybe I need to look at it as a blessing that promotes change and allowing me to turn to my Savior who has the ability to fill that uncomfortable space with goodness and inspiration I need to Become more like Him.

*Greatful that this morning it was much easier to get up. I am relishing in this me time allowing myself the space to feel things. It feels better than sleep and that is saying A LOT!

*There still is something great about a small home that I can hear the feet of each kid and know who it, where they are heading, and what kind of day they are having. Jude has already called for me (not yet baby), Hazel's alarm has gone off (still not up), Gable has went to the bathroom and then into my bed with DJ. Only one I'm unsure of it Poppy Mae.

*It's still light in the morning for another 6 weeks or so. Nice to look out and "see" in the morning.

WINS:
-Totally kept it together when Gable puked at work yesterday. Also got him out of the tahoe before he barfed again last night.

-Another workout done last night!

-Going to take the day off to make sure the boys are good to go. As hard as my job is, it does allow be to be a mom first.