The reality is that my hard might be easy for others, and my easy may be hard for some. Last night I needed to go to the grocery store. No fresh food and no milk made for no dinner. I decided to grab the kids at home and take them with me for an outing since Gable and Jude had been at home all day. This grocery trip was NOT an easy thing for me. Jude was clinging to me the entire time. I couldn't even put him down to put the produce in its bag. He would not sit in the cart or even on top of the cart. Gable kept walking in front of the cart so I was constantly catching him or stopping quick. Poppy was trying hard as usual, but couldn't do much to help the boys in this situation.
I was just listening Brough's talk from conference on hard things and the thing that testified was to not blame others for my hard things. I was frustrated with DJ the entire time I was shopping. He was home alone all weekend and didn't do it. He knew Jude would need milk but he drank it instead with breakfast. He knew we would be home on a Sunday and couldn't go get more, but he didn't plan ahead. All these thoughts did not make grocery shopping easier.
"We must face hard things, first, by forgiving others and, second, by giving ourselves to Heavenly Father"
I need to start forgiving others completely. For-Giving it back to them to deal with. So they can realize their mistake or unthoughtfulness. They may not ever get to that point, but by not forgiving them makes my "hard thing" so much harder!
I have never equated getting through hard things with forgiveness, but I can totally understand and feel how it can help. I think that forgiveness needs to start with yourself. Sometimes I am frustrated with myself because I have these feelings which then makes me more mad at the other because I'm dealing with double the trouble thanks to THEM! I know that when I feel better about myself, in turn I feel better about others.
Hard things are going to be a constant, but how hard is totally up to me and forgiveness is the key to ease the burden and find the glimpse of light that will allow me to push through to the other side.
Grateful:
-Got the kids breathing medicine filled last night. Makes such a difference for them. Glad it was a quick turn around
-Fizz I really needed/wanted it after my shopping trip. Was I using it as a coping mechanism - YEP! But, I dealt with those feelings this morning so now it's done and over.
-Jude slept from 11am-3pm yesterday. Wish I did as well ;)
Wins:
-Hazel is talking more and more to us about her hard things. This week it is friends and cursing. It's allowing us to teach her. Glad she is seeking the help.
-2 coaches down as of yesterday and 2 resumes in. Hopefully they both work out.
-Drank almost whole mug of water first thing this morning.
1 Needful Thing:
For others - keep seeking ways to serve my ministering families
For Me - Get some rugs ordered.
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