Time

"Time, time time, see what's become of me. While I looked around for my possibilities. I was so hard to please.."

Time balance is the hardest thing I do everyday. To get enough sleep. Work the 6+ hours. Feed the 5 people 2x a day. Get everyone where they need to be here is how it breaks out for me.

6:15-7:00ish - Wake up Hazel, Meditate, Read scriptures, Study, Write

7:00-7:15 - make sure Hazel is fed, brushed, hair done, packed, and ready to be picked up.

7:15-7:30 - start/pull out breakfast, shower (if I can), get Jude up, get his clothes, make sure Gable and Poppy are up and at em.

7:30-7:45 - get dressed, start doing my hair and makeup, brush teeth

7:45-8:00 - make sure Poppy is ready, hair done, teeth brushed, pa12cked

8:00-8:30 - get boys fed, packed, lunches made, dressed, hair done, teeth brushed, finish getting myself ready. Pack them into the car.

8:30-12:00ish - work at The Peak

12:30 - come home feed 2nd lunch, unpack, do breakfast dishes, try and get dinner figured out.

1:00-1:30 - get the boys down for naps, read books, snuggle them etc

2:00-3:00 - I need this nap or do I work out?

3:00-3:30 - girls get home. Visit about day 

3:30-5:30/6:00 - work at peak - take kids around to activities

6:00 - come make dinner, keep taking kids to activities

6:30-7:30 - dinner, running kids around

8:00-8:30 - clean up house, dishes, dinner

8:30-9:00 - family scriptures, bed time, make sure teeth are brushed, clothes are out, no one is dead

9:30-10:30 - try and work out, think, self-development, should be writing again.

No where in this day is there a time for my mind break, a good time for me to work out at my convenience. No time to go to the store, to do laundry, to even feel. It's tricky. 

I just got grumpy with Hazel because I'm having to interrupt my writing to get her lunch packed because she didn't do it last night. 

This is why I'm grumpy and do not love my family a lot of the time. The demands on my time is immense. Some days I handle it better than others, but for this season it's hard. It's hard to know what to give up. What to include. What to sacrifice. What is most important. 

I have no answers...

Grateful:

*Piano is back in our family. Poppy is playing right now.

*Almost done with Christmas show class division

*Did get a little workout done last night

Wins:

*Told the girls they got parts in the Christmas show

*Listened and read conference talk today

*Jude is getting better at The PEak