Enough

The word ENOUGH has become my mantra since July. I actually wear it everyday to remind myself that I AM Enough, I HAVE Enough but also to have me realize when I've DONE enough. All 3 are tricky for me, but the latter can be all consuming.

DONE enough is a different mindset that I have had in the past. Enough was only reached when things were FINISHED. I'm not sure if it was baby #4 or the new position I took on at work this summer but things are always in a state of un-done and that must be ok. The list is far too long to complete everyday, and often times allowing myself time to complete the tasks is beneficial in the long run so now I decide which projects are DONE is FUN (Thanks Alison Show), and which projects are fine to sit undone until tomorrow.

Most everything truly can wait another day. Most people can wait another day. Work texts, emails, and yes even Amazon purchases can wait another day.

I went to a class this summer in the midst of truly one of my busiest times in my entire life and the instructor explained how she has changed the way she does her "list." I was asking how to do it all. How to find time to meditate, write, reflect, self-improve, work, make food, love the family, and all the other daily to-do's that consume everyday life. She explained that each day she asks for inspiration of the ONE thing she needs to do each day. Everything else after that is optional. As long as she gets to the one thing she calls it success.

I am still working to find that inspirational something each day, BUT I have gotten so much better at knowing when I've done enough. That peace of mind as I walk away from tasks, people, and situations has made such a huge difference in my confidence. No longer am I seeking to prove myself or to out-do others. I have set my own limits and am comfortable with that I am doing. I'm meeting my own expectations (most days) and the truly is ENOUGH.

Grateful:
-It's friday. Enough said
-Yesterday committed to buy the time share and got Jude enrolled in up to 3
-Jude has been pretty good at the Peak so far

Wins:
-We decided not to clean last night. Hopefully the kids can help us do it fast tonight.
-Dr. Ford testified in front of congress today of her sexual harassment experience in high school with Supreme Court Nominee Kavanaugh and holy hell she did it. She was beautiful and strong as women are.
-Took time to feel sad about the above situation. Women being pined against women. Men being allowed to behave badly, and women put at fault. It's overwhelming, but I can create my world with my kiddos and instill in them what I wish was more abundant in the world.x