Re-Decision

Study today took me down many paths. The first was "promised obedience" which then led to "obedience" which then landed on the idea of re-decision.

I do a lot of self-reflection, and podcast listening to people sharing their hint and tips and stories. One common theme is minimalism and the freeing up of mind space to be used on bigger decisions. I have been in the process of "editing" my items and my life and  have found such joy and simplicity in this process. It is addictive to get rid of thing of excess. The mind can however be in conflict about it. I feel that I have to re-decide to do positive things every day.

This morning I definitely had to re-decide to wake up and routine. It was hard. I got a good amount of sleep, BUT not enough to make up for the deficit I find myself in. Re-deciding to go to bed at a good hour is redecided every darn day. Why is that? Why can't I make a simple decision and then keep to it. I know the positive results of a good decision, BUT I am seduced by the immediacy of instant satisfaction.

The process of redecision is exhausting and I cannot imagine how much of my brain power would be freed up by simply sticking to the decisions I made in the first place. Redecision is NOT to be confused with the ability to adjust. Adjusting is of course going to happen, but the beauty of decision is that it's not US that have changed. We still stuck to our original decision, but the SITUATION changed causing us to readjust. That is totally acceptable and a very much desired trait. It's the wishy-washy never sticking, always re-deciding that is sucking my mind, body, and spirit dry. If I want to be more clear minded, less exhausted, and no overwhelmed I simply need to decide and then STICK IT!

Grateful:
I can finally spell that darn word. It's spelled differently that I think it should be, but at least not I have a way to remember it. Cheese grater it is.

Writing has become my therapy as I take time to let things out and let them go. It clears my mind up for the important things.

Sleep last night was so needed and appreciated. Here's to a full week of enough sleep.

WINS:
Brought up the showering issue at community council last night. We will see what happens with it.

Keep finding good people to hire at the peak.

Gable came and snuggled me last night. I wish I could have just slept, but I love that he still loves to snuggle.